decolonization. anti-oppression. racial trauma & healing.
This place holds pieces of my research and reflections by way of word, song, poetry, and academic conversation.
My work mainly focuses on the following:
This talk discusses the Christian faith and the American church in a time of awakening, where we all the more uncover the realities of inequity and injustice in North America.
From the Help Gabes Stay Live Music Fundraiser at The Seattle School of Theology & Psychology, December 15. Video by Austin Huelsbeck “Formidable & Loved” Music & lyrics by Gabes Torres A Every night when you retire D F#m What do you say to the child inside Bm Who dreamt big and wild E And …
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Note from the creator: In my personal efforts of decolonizing my mind, body, spirit, and relationships, I would write letters to my ancestors and imagined who they were and what they were like. But I have more recently wondered and imagined what it would be like to be one someday. Here is the first of many …
Abstract: Artifacts of postcolonialism are in the traditions, language, and economic realities of Filipino culture. The continuing effects from centuries of regime did not leave the Filipino mentality and behavior untouched, especially their self-identity in relation to the American people and their culture whom they feel viscerally inferior to. This cultural dynamic becomes exploitative when the Filipino’s self-inferiority is used by the American to maintain in a position of power and advantage. This work explores how this dynamic occurs in relationships between employers and employees, and interactions between caretakers and guests within hospitality industries. There are stories, oftentimes unreported or hidden by the industry, where the American employer and customer manipulate the subservient Filipino worker and take advantage of their tendency to not stand up for themselves while in the presence of authority—even in the event of being mistreated and unfairly waged by employers, and/or assaulted and discriminated by hotel occupants and customers. By exploring a Filipino hotel worker’s experience in the industry, this project will engage the complexities of how the Philippines’ postcolonial history, which does not exempt the development of Filipino spirituality, created continually damaging consequences seen in corrupt power dynamics, and the self-inferior mentality of Filipinos. The crisis in these industries compromises the integrity of their work by misunderstanding and violating the true meaning of hospitality, and exposes how oppression from colonization persists and took on a different form today.
This song is written about my body and to my body—the body of a Filipino woman that is oftentimes invisible and misunderstood.
As a minority in the United States, there have been countless moments when I intentionally assimilated in order to survive and to belong. This involved actively rejecting my body for approval and safety–which I wasn’t aware were a false sense of approval and safety.
The song is a letter of apology and gratitude to my body. I apologized for the times I participated in the process of being invisible through my assimilation. Here, I also thanked my body for being the home that continues to hold me. It is precisely the home that makes me resilient, and the home that has been holding my heart and keeping me alive.
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