psychology. spirituality. postcolonial critique. racial identity.
This place holds pieces of my research and reflections by way of word, song, poetry, and academic conversation.
My work mainly focuses on the following:
Oh, the complexities of being a woman. While it is truly my greatest honor and joy to be one, it is also my greatest obstacle and heaviest burden as I get by in a man’s world. It is a world where people find it more acceptable to recognize me as a singer or artist than …
Listen here I am left so energized after a conversation with the compellingly insightful Annie Mesaros, especially when it is about postcolonialism, theology, hospitality, and culture on God Help Us. This is my first podcast interview, and here, you will find a 1-hour preview of my work and research, which is accompanied by my uncontrollable chuckles (often …
I prayed all the time when I was younger. And whenever I did, I could not help but imagine a white face to whom I addressed requests and express my gratitude to. A white god. A white Jesus. A white savior whom I felt indebted to for taking the time to listen whenever I brought …
Abstract: Artifacts of postcolonialism are in the traditions, language, and economic realities of Filipino culture. The continuing effects from centuries of regime did not leave the Filipino mentality and behavior untouched, especially their self-identity in relation to the American people and their culture whom they feel viscerally inferior to. This cultural dynamic becomes exploitative when the Filipino’s self-inferiority is used by the American to maintain in a position of power and advantage. This work explores how this dynamic occurs in relationships between employers and employees, and interactions between caretakers and guests within hospitality industries. There are stories, oftentimes unreported or hidden by the industry, where the American employer and customer manipulate the subservient Filipino worker and take advantage of their tendency to not stand up for themselves while in the presence of authority—even in the event of being mistreated and unfairly waged by employers, and/or assaulted and discriminated by hotel occupants and customers. By exploring a Filipino hotel worker’s experience in the industry, this project will engage the complexities of how the Philippines’ postcolonial history, which does not exempt the development of Filipino spirituality, created continually damaging consequences seen in corrupt power dynamics, and the self-inferior mentality of Filipinos. The crisis in these industries compromises the integrity of their work by misunderstanding and violating the true meaning of hospitality, and exposes how oppression from colonization persists and took on a different form today.
This song is written about my body and to my body—the body of a Filipino woman that is oftentimes invisible and misunderstood.
As a minority in the United States, there have been countless moments when I intentionally assimilated in order to survive and to belong. This involved actively rejecting my body for approval and safety–which I wasn’t aware were a false sense of approval and safety.
The song is a letter of apology and gratitude to my body. I apologized for the times I participated in the process of being invisible through my assimilation. Here, I also thanked my body for being the home that continues to hold me. It is precisely the home that makes me resilient, and the home that has been holding my heart and keeping me alive.
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